Every now and then, I have a thought about my car where I feel that something bad should happen to it when it's running well. In the past, when I've had this thought, things have happened such as having to replace the alternator and starter. However, this is not about trying to manifest anything; it's more about the feeling itself. I also feel as if something or someone in the sky is watching me and creating diversions and obstacles so that I can have a challenging life.
I am grateful for being aware of these thoughts, and I realize that I am the creator of all of them. No one in the sky is doing anything; I am the one in the sky, and I can embody any version of myself to decide what to do. This realization puts power and responsibility onto myself. I am grateful for the power that I have to decide who I want to be and what will happen in my life.
The point of the car breaking down is not about the car itself, but it's about putting myself in a position where I give something or someone else power or authority to decide what to do with my life. I am giving away my responsibility to that thing or person, which is not suggested because it means I am not taking responsibility for my life.
One reason I give my power away is that I created the idea don't have the awareness or capacity to manifest or create like my higher self can. However, that doesn't matter because my abilities do not create me; I create and empower myself with or without abilities. Another reason is that I was raised to believe in a God that is all-powerful, and we are nothing without this God. I forgive myself for constantly putting myself in a position of disempowerment. Now, I can stand in a position of power and move on into that seat of power.
Through gratitude, I have realized that everything is in my favor. The universe and life have always been giving me favor, but what has not been there is my awareness of it. When I give my power away to someone or something else to decide what to do with my life, it's because I don't recognize the favor that is everywhere. The favor has always been there because I am seated in the position of power always.
One reason why I may want something bad to happen to my car is that I want something challenging to happen in my life. I like challenges, but if I want to challenge myself, one of the best things to do is to challenge my thinking pattern. If I'm yearning for objective challenges, it means that I'm not doing enough internal work, and I need to focus on more internal mechanisms of my mind and thoughts to see where I am and fix those things.
In conclusion, it's essential to realize that I am the creator of my life, and I have the power to decide what will happen in it. It is not about giving my power away to someone or something else but taking responsibility for myself. Challenges are necessary in life, but instead of looking for external challenges, I need to focus on internal work and challenge my thinking patterns. Through gratitude and awareness, I realize that I am already in a position of power, and everything is in my favor.