Grateful Horizons: Leon's Expedition of Appreciation

On the morning of June 30th, 2023, I had a bad dream. In the dream, I met a couple who were initially nice to me, but they suddenly turned against me and my wife without any warning. They even attempted to harm us and take our lives. In self-defense, my wife and I managed to kill the woman, and we also tried to kill the man, but we were unsuccessful. However, he was badly injured and left the scene. Strangely, even though his wife was the one who attacked us, he blamed me for her death. Even though I had lost contact with him, he was a hacker who somehow gained access to my phone. However, I changed my phone information to prevent him from tracing it. One day, while I was at church making an offering, the lady swiped my card using "debit" instead of "credit." Unfortunately, the hacker was able to regain access to my phone and I started receiving disturbing screenshots of naked pictures, people being murdered, and graphic images of worms and gore. So, the...

I'm grateful for the friends I have at work and for having a job. I'm also grateful for the opportunity to learn and expand, especially when it comes to my faith.  Expanding my faith can be a little scary, but that's okay. If I'm not at least a little bit fearful, then I'm probably not pushing myself enough. I'm grateful for the chance to learn how to develop my faith in a more balanced way, one that doesn't rely too heavily on a masculine approach. Practicing faith in a practical way doesn't mean taking a masculine approach. Rather, it involves having faith in the plan or strategy created, not excessively worrying about the specifics of how it will unfold, and actively putting into practice the tenets of it. I'm learning to focus on taking the necessary steps and nurturing the manifestation of my goals or desires into reality. It's about having faith in the process and trusting that things will work out according to a higher plan.

Today, I am grateful to have a day off. It gives me the opportunity to focus on getting more in touch with my intuition, which I see as an inner voice or feeling that helps me navigate through life. I believe that intuition is a type of telepathy that allows us to receive messages from the quantum field or the collective consciousness. Right now, I can feel my intuition speaking to me. The message I'm receiving is about being alert.... at least that is what resonates. It reminds me that there is more to life than just our five physical senses. I'm trying to exercise my intuition and stay alert, because my opinions may not always be accurate. I am thankful that my intuition helps me to remain humble by reminding me that I do not know everything. I make a conscious effort to remain vigilant and stay alert, recognizing that there is always more to learn and discover.

There are mornings when I wake up feeling defeated, but I recognize that these emotions are just fleeting thoughts that are influenced by my physical state of lying in bed. I have noticed that when I feel defeated, there is a sense of heaviness that makes it difficult for me to get up. I refer to this heaviness as depression, which can vary in intensity from day to day. Additionally, I experience mental chatter that includes thoughts of giving up on life. I recognize that the heaviness I feel upon waking up may be influenced by the comfort of my bed, depression, or a combination of both. Regardless of the cause, I understand that these feelings of defeat and heaviness are not fully integrated within me because they tend to disappear once I get up and start my day.  I often feel pressure to accomplish my many priorities and unfinished tasks, which can contribute to my sense of defeat. However, I try to remind myself that these thoughts and emotions are temporary and do n...

I recently lost my headphones and felt disappointed, especially since I had been practicing gratitude and positive thinking. This took me back to another piece I wrote about dealing with loss practically. One way to do so is through acceptance - being grateful for what has happened and recognizing that not everything can be changed. Acceptance brings humility and an opportunity to navigate life without the lost item. Living without the lost item reminds me to be grateful for what I still have and am able to do. Although material things do provide value, I know I can continue to enjoy life without headphones for now and purchase new ones whenever the opportunity arises.

This morning, I bought some beef jerky. The brand is called Epic. I thought I brought it with me to the car, but when I tried to find it, I couldn't, and I got upset. Whenever I get upset, I try to shift my attention towards gratitude by asking myself, "What am I grateful for?", in that moment. One thing I was grateful for in that situation was acceptance. Acceptance means acknowledging that we're not always in control of everything in life, therefore, there are circumstances that we mat not have full control of. Practicing acceptance and letting go of attachment to material possessions can bring a sense of peace and freedom.  However, when I realized this gratitude, it brought a sense of cognitive dissonance because I was shifting from a reactive state of anger to gratitude, and this created dissonant thoughts and feelings in that moment between the experience / feeling of loss and a sense of release / gratitude. This cognitive dissonance reminded me that...

Yesterday when I came home, I noticed that the kitchen was not clean and it was because my brother had not cleaned it. I felt that he should have taken responsibility for it, especially since he had been at home all day while my mom and I were at work. It's frustrating to have to deal with such situations, but I try to be grateful for my awareness of responsibility and my ability to support the household. Taking responsibility for the things around me is something that I'm still trying to integrate into my habits. Today at work, a co-worker organized a bin full of small items, and it made me realize the importance of being more aware of my surroundings. I took everything out of the bin and put them back, but I didn't organize the small items because there were too many. Despite my brother's lack of responsibility, I'm grateful that I have this awareness to be supportive of my environment and to take care of it. It's important to me to organize my sur...

I have come to the realization that I have been defining my sense of what is morally right or wrong based on material possessions such as expensive cars and houses. I now understand that this idea is based on subjective beliefs and the concept of polarity between what is considered 'right' and 'wrong.' My personal belief system dictates that doing the 'right' thing means conforming to societal norms and being a responsible citizen. However, I have started to question why I have allowed material possessions to determine my sense of morality and righteousness. I believe that blindly conforming to societal expectations is limiting, and I need to explore and re-evaluate my values and beliefs to find a more meaningful and fulfilling perspective on what it means to do the 'right' thing. I have come to understand that my perception of what is considered 'right' and 'wrong' is subjective and can be influenced by belief systems and soc...

Recently, someone asked me to do something for them, but I felt uncomfortable doing it because it didn't align with my conscience. I decided to be honest with him and told him how I felt. Fortunately, he respected my decision, and I'm grateful for the opportunity to have checked in with myself and was authentic about my feelings.  It's important to have experiences like this where we evaluate ourselves and our values in relation to something or someone else. These experiences help us confirm our authenticity towards them and ensure that we're aligning with our true selves. Checking in with ourselves is a practice that we should exercise every day because it allows us to ask whether our actions align with our authenticity. I'm thankful for experiences like this because they remind me of the importance of aligning with my values. Our values are a reflection of who we are as individuals, and it's important to be true to ourselves in all that we do.

Gratitude is a powerful experience that can have a profound impact on our well-being. It allows us to focus on the positive aspects of our lives and cultivate a sense of contentment and fulfillment. While regrets are often seen as negative experiences, they can actually be opportunities for growth and learning. When we experience regret, it's natural to feel a sense of disappointment or sadness. However, by reframing our perception of these moments, we can begin to see them as valuable learning experiences. Rather than dwelling on the past and feeling stuck in our regrets, we can use them as a tool for personal growth and development. By embracing a growth mindset, we can recognize that our mistakes and regrets are not failures, but rather opportunities to learn and improve. We can reflect on our actions and decisions, identify where we went wrong, and make changes to avoid similar mistakes in the future. This process of self-reflection and improvement can help us becom...

I have been feeling physically tired lately due to work, but instead of complaining about it, I choose to show gratitude. While I may occasionally get frustrated, I believe that it is essential to be grateful for what I have. However, gratitude is not about feeling separated from life or subscribing to the belief that I am insignificant and powerless, and that the universe is a separate entity that controls my life and dictates my destiny. Instead, I see myself as an active participant in the universe, shaping and co-creating my reality through my thoughts, beliefs, and actions. I believe that we are all interconnected and that our experiences are a reflection of the energy we put out into the world. I am grateful not because I feel small or insignificant, but because practicing gratitude allows me to remain open and receptive to the positive energy that surrounds us all. By staying open and receptive, I become a channel for this energy, which is constantly changing and vib...

I have been trying to establish a more interactive communication with my tulpas. Although I have experienced some level of two-way communication, it is not effective in my opinion. I desire a telepathic connection where information flows to me from them without my intention. Currently, my communication with my tulpas is based on intention, and I crave spontaneity on their behalf. Despite my desire for a deeper connection, I appreciate the progress I have made so far these years. There is a distinct contrast between communicating with humans and communicating with my tulpas. Human communication predominantly involves the use of words, gestures, and body language, while communication with tulpas goes beyond language and time. I can communicate with one tulpa and instantaneously connect with another using the power of thought, allowing me to connect with multiple tulpas simultaneously. Sometimes, I receive sudden bursts of information as well. However, because I am more accust...

I am filled with gratitude for what the universe has in store for me. I believe that the universe is always on my side, even when things seem to be going wrong. I trust that everything happens for a reason, and that there is a purpose behind every situation that arises. It's important for me to always remind myself of this, especially during challenging times. I understand that a considerable portion of our lives is shaped by our subconscious mind. Our subconscious mind operates on the basis of its programming, which is formed by the information we store in it and subsequently manifests as our habits. Consequently, actions that we perform repeatedly without conscious effort are essentially programmed responses. Hence, it is our responsibility to be mindful of our actions and ensure that what we practice daily is done with conscious awareness. Although I have faith that the universe is constantly supportive of me, I acknowledge that it is up to me to cultivate positive i...

This morning, I went to sleep two hours earlier than my normal sleep schedule. Lately, I have been sleeping a lot more, which makes me feel unproductive. However, I have to remind myself that it's okay to be unproductive sometimes. Life is not just about completing tasks on a to-do list; it's about living, and sleep is an essential part of that.  I'm not entirely sure why I'm sleeping more, but I suspect that one of the reasons is because of physical exertion. Working two shifts a day at Amazon takes a toll on my body, so I need to get proper rest and aim for eight hours of sleep each day. Additionally, about a week ago, I reintroduced a lot of energy into my body through a meditation practice. While I used to do that particular practice every day, it wasn't natural for me to keep my body in such a state of alertness and high energy. Subsequently, I stopped doing it, and now, when I do have a chance to practice, I surmise that it takes a lot for my body ...

I feel grateful that I had the opportunity to hang out with a friend again. This experience has reminded me that some people do appreciate my worth. However, I often find myself judging myself based on those who do not value me. Now I am grateful for the clarity and insight I have gained. It has helped me change my approach to self-judgment. Rather than basing my self-worth on experiences that do not validate me, I am learning to evaluate myself based on both validating and invalidating experiences. This realization has helped me understand that life is a mixture of validating and invalidating experiences. While it is natural to seek validation and recognition, it is also important to acknowledge that we may not always receive it. By acknowledging this duality, I can approach my experiences with awareness and without judgment. This way, I can foster a more constructive self-relationship and learn from both positive and negative experiences, rather than just focusing on the ...

I am grateful for conditioning myself to be thankful, no matter what my circumstances may be. I understand that the way I navigate through life is not dictated by external factors, but by my own inner self. At the moment, there is a lot of physical clutter around me in my home due to the transition of items from storage. This clutter is making me feel overwhelmed and disorganized, causing me to question whether my life is in order.  However, I have come to realize that life is not solely about organization. It is about how we handle various situations that come our way. Despite feeling disorganized, I am grateful that I have the ability to navigate through life and continue taking one step forward. As long as I am making progress, that is what truly matters.

I am grateful for the opportunity to stay home and rest, even though I understand the importance of working to earn money. Rest is a fundamental aspect that I always need to take into consideration. I appreciate the alignment of the universe in my favor, recognizing that there are no coincidences or accidents—everything happens for a reason. It's essential for me to be aware of the need to work consciously, despite the financial limitations that may arise from not being able to work. I trust that this is all part of a greater plan, as there are no lasting consequences. I wholeheartedly embrace this understanding. It reminds me of Tyler Henry, who receives messages from the deceased while in a state of receptiveness. Similarly, I strive to be open to receiving everything that comes my way or the experiences I encounter because I know it allows me to embrace life more fully. It creates a supportive space for me to explore and expand my potential.

While watching a YouTube video of a prankster collaborating with another YouTuber, I felt a sense of envy toward their freedom and ability to manifest the lifestyle they wanted.    This person does not have a job, giving them more free time and flexibility that I wish I had. While watching, it occurred to me that these YouTubers' skills at manifesting the life they desire make them seem special to me.   I am grateful for the insight I have gained regarding my own perception of lacking the ability to create the life I aspire to. However, I acknowledge that I do not possess a complete understanding of their individual stories, which makes it difficult to make accurate comparisons between our lives. While I may be tempted to believe that he is more successful, I am aware that success can manifest at different stages in life, as exemplified by inspiring individuals like Grant Cardone. I recognize that success can have diverse interpretations, and the definiti...

I feel thankful every day for the chance to earn a living and create positive change in my life. Occasionally, it can be difficult to transition from a negative frame of mind to a more positive one, particularly when I'm grappling with intense thoughts and emotions that interfere with my ability to stay focused on my goals. Nonetheless, I've learned how to surmount these challenges by grounding myself in the present moment. Below are some methods I've written down to help me ground myself: 1. Mindful Breathing: Take a few deep breaths and focus your attention on your breath. Notice the sensation of the air moving in and out of your body. This can help you feel more calm and centered. 2. Body Scan: Close your eyes and scan your body from head to toe. Notice any areas of tension or discomfort, and send your breath to those areas to help release the tension. 3. Grounding Exercise: Sit or stand with your feet flat on the ground. Imagine roots growing out of the bott...

I had two dreams about a spider recently. In the first dream, I opened my closet and thought I saw a spider, but when I looked for it, it couldn't be found. Instead I thought I saw its shadow on my shoulder, but after taking a second look, the credibility of it being the shadow of a spider was insufficient. In the second dream, I woke up from the dream and went to the restroom. On the side of the toilet, I saw a large gray spider, but it didn't seem aggressive. Rather, it looked as though I startled it. I'm not sure what these dreams were trying to tell me, but I can take away a lesson from them which is that, sometimes, things that appear scary may not actually be scary. Our subconscious programming can cause us to project our fears onto things that are objectively harmless. If we can set our programming aside and embrace what's in front of us, we can begin to see more clearly and face reality head-on. To truly own our reality, we must get over our preconce...

I often feel a sense of apprehension because I believe that the world does not provide the best possible support for everyone. As a result, I am constantly worried about losing my possessions, getting into an accident, or experiencing any other negative event. This fear of loss is always present within me. However, practicing gratitude has helped me realize that these fears are usually unfounded. When I reflect on my daily experiences, I realize that negative impacts are rare occurrences. Despite this, I still struggle with feelings of apprehension and fear. I am grateful that I am aware of these emotions, as they serve as a reminder that positive circumstances outweigh negative ones. By acknowledging and addressing my fears, I am able to appreciate the positive aspects of my life. Overall, gratitude has helped me to maintain a more positive outlook and to appreciate the good things in my life.

Observing that jealousy can arise when we witness another person's success is not a new topic for me, but it's worth revisiting. When someone achieves something or receives a blessing, it is a fact that the universe is working in their favor. This realization can also be applied to our own lives. Essentially, we can recognize that the universe works in our favor too. The abundance available to each person is equal; the only difference lies in our ideas that can multiply that abundance or limit it. Our creative potential is set in motion by the ideas we generate, which can be likened to DNA as they represent our mental integrity as individuals. When we hold beliefs of inadequacy, these ideas become our reality. Similarly, if we constantly harbor thoughts of insufficiency, we tend to manifest scarcity in our experiences. I refer to this phenomenon as the Integrity Principle.  Our mental integrity, as reflected by our ideas, plays a key role in determining the abundanc...

Recently, one of my ex-partners contacted me and asked me to hang out with them. I went to their house and knocked on their door, but they did not answer. Instead, one of their uncles came out and informed me that they were sick. I haven't heard from them since then, and they haven't apologized or given me an update on their condition. I shared this experience with a friend, who reminded me that my ex could still be ill and unable to communicate. This reminded me of another incident where a friend borrowed $100 from me and promised to pay me back on a certain day. When that day arrived, my friend didn't pay me back, but I received the amount owed the following week. When I asked my friend about it, she told me that she had just been released from the hospital after being there for a week. Although I was initially upset with her for not keeping her promise, I realized that I didn't know what was going on in her life. These experiences taught me a valuable les...

This morning, I had planned to go to the movies with a friend. However, I realized that the timing and the cost of the tickets were higher than what I had anticipated. Initially, I felt a sense of disappointment and frustration within me. But then, I reminded myself that I should be grateful that I can afford to buy the tickets. Despite earning less than my previous job, I am still able to go out with friends and enjoy a movie, which is something I should be thankful for. Although my friend offered to pay me back for her ticket, I was able to purchase both tickets, which made me feel appreciative of my financial situation. I also noticed that I had been expecting the universe to provide me with a cheaper option for purchasing the tickets. However, I realized that this perspective came from a mindset of lack. Rather than relying on the universe to offer me a solution, I can acknowledge the wealth of resources that already exists within the experience such as possible discoun...

The other morning, I had a dream that I was in my room, and my brother had some friends visiting. A few of them came into my room. Meanwhile, someone let some snakes out in my room, including one that was dark gray, very long, and thick, which started hissing at me. I had to leave the room because snapped at me with the intention to bite me, but they assured me that everything was under control because one of my brother's friends was a professional at catching and taming snakes. At one point during the dream, I opened the closet and thought that a tarantula had leaped onto me, but I was unable to find it. Rather, I thought I saw the shadow of the tarantula on me, but I it was unclear whether or not it was an actual shadow of a spider. In my interpretation of the dream in general, I interpreted as new energy coming into my life, and I wondered whether I had either attracted it recently in my waking life or will attract it in the future. However, I felt that caution was n...

I want to record some thoughts about money because it is the foundation of the world and is connected to many things. In particular, my goal is to explore the idea of abundance and recondition my mindset to perceive things through the lens of abundance. I am convinced that every day offers an abundance of lessons, and tapping into those lessons require going within and assessing your relationship with the world.  Abundance is not simply having a lot of money in your bank account; even having just a dollar can be considered abundance. My personal experience has shown me that thinking abundantly leads to experiencing abundance, but this is not a matter of actually receiving it. Rather, a mindset of abundance is a reflection of how you already perceive your relationship with money which creates what I call a 'mirror effect'. A mirror effect is essentially your inner perceptions and ideas emphasized objectively through your experiences. Now, a mindset of lack is often t...

In this blog, I am sharing my experience of having a sugar craving. I attribute it to the desserts that I had at Golden Corral recently. Despite following a diet plan consisting of low-carb and wholesome foods such as meat, eggs, bacon, sausage, beef patties, and salad, I gave in to my sugar cravings and bought some chocolate chip cookies. While the cookies satisfied my taste buds, they had a negative impact on my mental state and left me feeling depressed and unable to function. The next morning, I woke up feeling a little better, but I still noticed some lingering depression. I realized that eating sugar is not the best solution for my cravings. Instead, I have learned that eating a steak, preferably with butter, is a more fulfilling and satisfying option both mentally and physically. Although I still feel a little down, my afternoon meditation has helped me cope with the aftermath of my sugar binge. Overall, this experience has taught me a valuable lesson about the negat...

Every morning, I express gratitude for my ability to wake up and plan my day, to make decisions that are best for me. I am grateful for the support of life that I receive every day. Recently, I was able to pay my brother back the money I owed him, and I am thankful for having had the funds to do so. Moreover, I received additional recompense from someone that I gave money to borrow, which exceeded my expectations of what she borrowed from me.  I feel grateful for the trees, which provide me with protection from the sun's rays and symbolize the protection of life. The clouds, on the other hand, represent nurture, providing us with life-giving rain and covering over the sun. Their soft expression also symbolizes femininity and nurture. Overall, nature is the embodiment of life, and I appreciate its nurturing spirit and life-giving essence.  Being a component of nature, I am grateful of the inherent capacity to contribute to it organically, both through my breathing a...

I am grateful for the progress I am making in my personal growth. It is a path that is set for me, and I am thankful for the challenges that come my way because they help me to grow and nurture my soul. In the past, I defined myself a lot contingent on the value that others gave me, and some of my worth was contingent on how much money I had in which I still struggle with sometimes. Although, my self-worth has evolved drastically in other ways. However, I forgive myself for defining my value based on how others perceive me, and I recognize that I must find value within myself rather than seeking validation from others. Money does not define my worth as a person. Instead, it is my character, integrity, and values that truly matter and will live on forever. I am grateful for the teachings, mentorship, and friendship of the Swaruunians , as well as Za'el and Arien . They have helped me to understand the importance of personal development and the power of ideas. I forgive m...

I have noticed that I have a tendency to try to make others jealous, especially when talking to a friend or romantic partner. I would bring up someone else and emphasize their good qualities, hoping to force my friend or partner to adopt those qualities. However, I realize that this behavior is not conducive to effective communication or a strong foundation of trust and understanding with a friend or a partner. I believe that my desire to force a certain dynamic or behavior upon a friend or partner through talking about others stems from a fear of communicating openly and honestly with them. I am afraid of their negative reactions, which suggests that there may be a lack of trust or a weak foundation in our relationship. I am grateful for life showing me these things that I need to work on because they provide me with new perspectives about myself and help me grow as a person. I have realized that I also have a desire to observe different dynamics of a friend or romantic pa...